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  Book Blurb

  He's a former bad boy learning to forgive his past mistakes.

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  She's a grieving widow struggling with motherhood.

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  A life-altering event offers them hope for a better future together.

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  Elijah Cooper grew up in church but without a relationship with God. Something he didn't think he needed until he did. When Eli offers Reina support in a crisis, a friendship develops that could blossom to more. But with his troubled past, he is not interested in a love match or a ready-made family.

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  After her husband's untimely death, Reina Blackwell can't trust the ground she walks on not to crumble beneath her. She's certainly no longer trusting the God who created it. Not after he shatters her world leaving her alone to mourn and raise her son.

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  With scars too deep to heal on their own, can Eli and Reina find the faith they need to give and receive love?

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  This sweet romance will tug at your heartstrings and comfort you with joy and laughter.

  Accepting Elijah’s Heart

  © 2021 M. Michelle Derosier

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  This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, businesses, places, event, and incidents are either the product of the author’s imagination or used in a fictitious manner. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or actual events is purely coincidental.

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  All rights reserved. No part of this publication may be reproduced, distributed or transmitted in any form or by any means, without prior written permission from the author. For permissions contact [email protected].

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  Published by In DisQovery Press, Wilmington, 2021

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  Accepting Elijah’s Heart

  A Contemporary Christian Romance (The Grande Pearl Series Book 1)

  M. Michelle Derosier

  In DisQovery Press

  Yet not what I will, but what you will.

  —Mark 14:36

  For Dave.

  Contents

  Chapter 1

  Chapter 2

  Chapter 3

  Chapter 4

  Chapter 5

  Chapter 6

  Chapter 7

  Chapter 8

  Chapter 9

  Chapter 10

  Chapter 11

  Chapter 12

  Chapter 13

  Chapter 14

  Chapter 15

  Chapter 16

  Chapter 17

  Chapter 18

  Epilogue

  Also by M. Michelle Derosier

  Excerpt: Christmas at The Grande Pearl

  About the Author

  Chapter 1

  Reina Blackwell was convinced some days existed just to make mothers cry. She narrowed her eyes as if the concentrated stare could fast-track her to the front of the turtle-moving checkout line. She silently begged the chubby-cheeked baby in the car seat to remain quiet and shook her head at the many extra items that disqualified her for the coveted “15 or fewer” line.

  “Nate, give mommy five more minutes.” His eyes, nuggets of dark chocolate that reminded her so much of his father’s, followed her voice. Or was it late father? Did it matter? Nathaniel never had the chance to meet the man who’d died the day after learning his wife was a month pregnant with their first child. I should be grateful he at least had the joy of knowing he was going to be a father. Reina’s heart hardened at should. “Miss, it’s your turn,” prompted the Tofutti-loving brunette in the next line, interrupting her thoughts.

  Paying for the items took longer than she realized. As soon as she handed her reusable bags to the cashier, Nathaniel let loose one of his now-famous I gave you ample warning to pay attention to me screams. A scream that startled the toddler at the front register to tears.

  “I’m so sorry,” she said to the child’s mother and threw her newly packed bags into the shopping cart. Reina quickly exited the supermarket to the tune of Nate’s exasperated screams and the toddler’s hiccupped cries.

  Yep. I’m winning at this mom life. Useless, she thought, despite her best effort not to. Two days into the New Year and those thoughts she’d promised to leave behind still plagued her. “Mommy’s sorry, Nate. It’s no fun being stuck in this winter suit for almost four hours. Let’s grab a car and go home.” Reina dug through the diaper bag for her phone to pull up the car app. “Ugh. Great. It’s dead. Now I have to fight for a cab.”

  She hurried to a nearby corner and searched for a taxi while trying to avoid the stampede of students, local street performers, tourists, and scowling office workers rushing to their destinations to get out of the January cold. Hey, dummy, she scolded herself. Next time, go to the perfectly good grocery store just blocks from your apartment. Keeping the same routines won’t bring your husband back. Reina remembered the days when she and Jared used to leave their uptown apartment to walk to this downtown supermarket—a destination easily reached with a twenty-minute subway ride. Instead, they’d spend the hour-plus leisurely walking through Central Park—stopping often to sit on the grass to talk, make-out, and people watch. Something about being in love—both with the man and the city—distorted her view of how impractical that was. A fact that was much harder to ignore in the face of 20-degrees and an unreasonable, angry baby.

  “Gade yon koze! What a mess!” Reina said, shaking her head.

  A mess trying to hail a cab while soothing the nerves of her irritated son. Reina was ready to donate her groceries to a passerby and hop on the subway. Thank God for good Samaritans. An older gentleman caught the attention of a passing cabbie and helped get her and the baby settled in. She thanked him for his kindness and directed the driver to her apartment.

  “It’s rush hour, Nate; we’re going to be here for a while. Please be nice to mommy and this gentleman and stop hollering.” She smiled her apology to the driver. When he didn’t stop, she continued. “Come on, baby. We’re both novices at this parent-child thing. This is your first go-round as a baby, and my first—and last, judging by how well I’m doing right now—trip down mommy lane.” She rocked Nate as best she could in the car seat while he continued to cry. The driver, a gray-haired man in what appeared to be his seventies, shifted in his seat and peeked at them in the rearview mirror as if ready to offer help. I’d quiet him down if I could. You try reasoning with a three-month-old.

  Reina tried again to give Nate the bottle without success. “I’m sorry you’re stuck with me for a mom. I mean, come on, I can’t even make you a decent bottle of milk.” The driver’s stare in the rearview mirror was her condemning inner voice. You’re an unfit mother. It mocked. You know nothing about raising a baby. Reina blinked twice to break contact with his stare. Even he can see I’m a lousy parent. That I can’t do this alone. She bit her tongue hard to stem the unshed tears. Last thing I want is to show this man how pathetic I am. How much I don’t have it in me to keep going.

  The cab continued its trip uptown, and as it crawled through traffic, paused near a familiar sight—her home church before Jared’s death. She focused on the Welcome sign that read: “Trust in the Lord with all your heart.” How was she to trust the God who had torn apart her family and shattered her heart in the process? Nathaniel’s continued tears reminded her of her promise to try. I have to do it for you. I’m falling apart, but for your sake, I have to keep trusting so I can cope.

  She spent the rest of the ride calming Nathaniel until he finally fell asleep. Both she and the driver breathed a sigh of relief, and she laughed. The driver’s raised eyebrow questioned her sanity. Rein
a was happy when he pulled up in front of her building, leaving her enough space to get out without having to remove a sleeping Nate. Not catching sight of her doorman, she thought it safer to unload the bags first and leave them, rather than the baby, in front of the building. She paid the driver and did so. She got five out of the six bags to the front door in one shot, but she accidentally shut the car door while grabbing the last bag. A gesture the driver reasonably took to mean he was free to continue with his evening. The driver sped away without a backward glance, while Nathaniel remained nestled in the back of the cab.

  Immediately realizing her mistake, Reina screamed for him to stop. “My baby is in the car. Bondye! God! My baby is in the car,” she shouted as she ran to catch up to him. Upon realizing the situation, passersby also echoed her frantic call. She moved faster than her legs wanted to carry her. She wailed for her son with every step and fought to breathe as the bitter chill constricted her lungs. Her heartbeat skyrocketed with every labored breath and exploded with fear the farther away the car sped. Running at the speed of a possessed cheetah left little room in her lungs for the air needed to form coherent words. What should have been “no” and “stop” turned into “gasp…gasp…nnn…gasp…o…gasp…st…gasp…st…gasp…op.” Reina picked up every item in sight. She threw pebbles, branches, and discarded plastic bottles, hoping to land them near the cab to grab the driver’s attention. She collapsed on the sidewalk when at last she was unable to bring enough air to her wheezing lungs. Tears formed icicles down her face as she stared in horror as the driver drove on, unknowingly taking her son with him.

  Before the commotion, Elijah Cooper was about to enter his building when he noticed the myriad of bags blocking the front door. Just what I need after work. Several false alarms. One elevator mishap. Two multiple alarm fires. And three semi-serious car accidents. He was exhausted. For once he wanted to come home after a 72-hour shift and be able to go straight to sleep. Elijah shoved the key fob back in his pocket and looked around for the owner of the grocery bags. Having spotted the inconsiderate neighbor who had just dropped them off, he followed her to express his displeasure. Seconds later, he saw a cab speed off and heard the neighbor’s blood-curdling screams, and saw her mad dash after it.

  Quickly assessing the situation, he ran along with her to catch up to the driver. Halfway down the block, he realized doing so was futile and rushed back to the building and motioned for the recently appearing doorman to call 911. Elijah put in a quick call to his best friend, Jason—a police officer—to report what he caught of the cab’s license plate. Once done, he sprinted over to the small worried crowd forming a circle around his neighbor. Several hands reached out to steady her as she attempted to crawl off the sidewalk back to a standing position. When at last on her feet, she clawed at her pockets in search of her phone.

  “Po-li-ce pol-ice ca-call the police—” Her labored breathing made each word painful to pronounce and hear.

  To spare her using what little energy she had left, Elijah interrupted with, “Ma’am, we’ve already called them.”

  Trying to focus her attention, he stepped closer and inserted himself in her personal space—something he’d never do under normal circumstances. Having grown up in a house with three women, he knew better. She took an unsteady step back. Visibly attempting to calm her breathing, he heard her mumble something in a language he could quickly identify as Haitian Creole thanks to his fellow firefighter Karl. Though he didn’t understand what she said, it sounded like “Bondye, Bondye.” It was hard to make out since she had yet to reestablish normal breathing patterns. Her eyes darted up and down the block, probably hoping the driver would realize his mistake and bring her son back. When that did not happen, she gathered her wits and thanked him for his help.

  Their doorman, Joe, reappeared to let them know the police were on their way. “I grabbed your bags, Mrs. Blackwell. They’re sitting by the elevator,” Joe told her. He looked like he wanted to offer more help, but there wasn’t much else he could do.

  Elijah watched as she tried to process the words. She stared at Joe, listening, possibly filtering his words for any information about her son.

  A worried Joe turned to him. “Mr. Cooper, can you help Mrs. Blackwell inside? I’d stay, but Mrs. McFarland is going to need an extra hand to the car from the lobby.”

  Elijah had lived in the building, officially known as The Grande Pearl, for the last five years. He couldn’t say he knew all of his neighbors, but everyone knew Mrs. McFarland in 15G. It felt like the elderly lady had been born in the building, although that wasn’t the case. She was one of the few original residents left and reigned as the Queen of The Pearl.

  “Go ahead, Joe. If it’s fine with Mrs. Blackwell, I’ll stick around.”

  Mrs. Blackwell, who had been standing there still trying to level her breathing, looked surprised but nodded her agreement.

  “Reina,” she said. “I’m Reina.”

  “Eli,” he responded.

  He offered his arm to walk her back to the warmth of the waiting building. Her breathing slowed to a more even tempo. By the time they sat on a bench in the lobby, she was sorting through everything the police would need to know.

  “He was wearing his black and green snowsuit. He hates it because the string on the zipper tickles his nose. He also dislikes wearing the hat with the bunny ears.” She sniffed back tears. “I know he’s going to ask me to delete all pictures of him in that outfit when he gets older.” He listened as she continued to talk, not sure she noticed him taking notes on his phone. “I took a picture of him wearing it today, but I can’t find my phone right now. It’s dead anyway.”

  “What else can you tell me about your son?” The narrowing of her eyes led him to add, “Anything more that would be helpful for the officers to know.”

  Her eyes sparkled when discussing her son. “Even at this age he has a great sense of humor and laughs at all his mommy’s jokes.” She hugged herself as if comforted by the memory. “He doesn’t like the dark and will not sleep without background noises—preferably talking. Because I wouldn’t shut up when I was pregnant with him, he’s now equated sleep with the sound of his mother’s voice.” She continued, unable to sniff the tears back quickly enough. “His future wife is going to hate me for that.” Eli responded with a small smile. “When he’s annoyed, his cries are loud enough to awake a comatose person. It can take up to an hour to calm him down. That’s why I was so happy he’d finally fallen asleep in the cab . . .” She trailed off, cutting eye contact.

  He sought the words to put her at ease, but she continued before they could come.

  “I only needed an hour of peace.” Unable to control her trembling voice, she hesitated before adding, “Great mom I am, huh?”

  Eli paused before answering, not because he thought she was a terrible mother, but because he couldn’t pass judgment. All the “kids” in his extended family were in their twenties, and he had no children of his own—much to his mother’s chagrin. If the way she spoke about her baby was a sign, she seemed like a great mom to him.

  She must have taken his silence as agreement. Her shoulders sagged.

  Too late, Eli hurried to reassure her when he noticed her bright expressive eyes quickly dim. Not sure what he could say to make her believe him, he shifted the conversation to seek information.

  “How much does Nate weigh? What’s his height? Eye color? Hair color? Do you have pictures upstairs you can have ready to show to the police?”

  She followed his lead and answered the questions: 14 pounds, 26 inches—tall for his age, dark brown and black. Yes, there are plenty of pictures. She moved toward the elevator, searching her pockets for her keys. Joe reappeared and pressed the button to her floor.

  “Mrs. Blackwell, I’m sorry about Nate.”

  She cleared her throat of tears and said thanks. Eli grabbed the bags and loaded them onto the elevator, holding the door for Reina to board.

  “Thank you,” she stated. “You’ve
been such a great help.”

  He gave a quick nod.

  “I’ll send the police right up, Mrs. Blackwell.” The doors shut before she could respond.

  They rode the elevator in silence: she, pulling her gloves on and off and on and off, and he, glancing at her surreptitiously. He observed her while separated by a river of grocery bags. She was taller than most women he dated. He would venture to guess she stood only five or six inches shorter than his six feet two—her slim frame added to the illusion of Amazonian height. She was pretty, with brown eyes so dark they met the standards for black. Her skin was a polished shade of black onyx, and two thumb-tack-sized birthmarks formed a noticeable heart at the edge of her left cheekbone. She was pretty, though not beautiful. But something in the total package demanded a lingering second look.

  Why am I focused on this? He noticed the diamond wedding band when she moved to wipe a tear from her eye. He thought of his parents and the way they’ve supported one another over the years and wondered where her husband was and why she hadn’t asked for his phone to call him. Why would she go through this alone? Are they separated? He mentally reprimanded himself, uncomfortable with the spark of curiosity about her marriage. His friends liked to joke about his revolving door of women, but his life had changed in the last year. But even before then, marriage was a line he respected. Besides, although attractive, she didn’t fit the profile of his taste in women. A shallow assessment of his romantic past would reveal a man with a penchant for petite, curvy, light-eyed, and long-haired redheads who danced too close to self-destruction.